It's not dusk yet

It's not dusk yet

Monday, March 26, 2007

The Stand

You stood before creation
Eternity within Your hand
You spoke the earth into motion
My soul now to stand

You stood before my failure
Carried the Cross for my shame
My sin weighed upon Your shoulders
My soul now to stand

So what can I say
What can I do
But offer this heart O God
Completely to You

So I'll walk upon salvation
Your Spirit alive in me
This life to declare Your promise
My soul now to stand

So what can I say
What can I do
But offer this heart O God
Completely to You

So I’ll stand
With arms high and heart abandoned
In awe of the One who gave it all

So I’ll stand
My soul Lord to You surrendered
All I am is Yours
Show me Your heart
Show me Your way
Show me Your glory



Not much time to blog these days. But just wanna share my love to all you people out there who feel that the world has turned upside down, that there is no hope, that life just plain sucks cos of projects, assignments and tests that you don't even know why you exist anymore.

I've felt that way too, but I've found peace. Because He loves me. Because He is there. Because He walks with me.

God is Love.

Are you seeking love today?

Saturday, March 03, 2007

heart is heavy

One week, four midterm papers. One day, three midterm papers. Have you ever heard of such a phenomenon? Have you ever seen such audacity? Have you known anyone to be so suay?
Nearly died studying for them. Just finished my last paper today: Genes and society
Rather tricky mcq questions. All the questions were so similar and all squeezed into the pages, they looked so wordy and gave me a headache. And the option E. "None of the above is correct." "All of the above are correct." DOn't you just hate questions like that? And almost all the questions had that option.
Sigh but thank God its over.
And now i gotta turn my worries to the ps review due on tuesday. An essay on fri. Week after next, 2 class presentations. I know i dont have the right to complain because many students are suffering from the workload as well. Yup, kempate Dawn! And all you fellow muggers out there..
I don't feel good. I don't know why, maybe cos of things bogging me down lately. Some are small, some are affective. Not just school work..Just struggling with some issues. Kinda tired. Wish we had an extra term break instead of wasting our chinese new year one. Like why cant they give us a break(literally) and not put exams behind the recess week.
Sometimes you really wish that you could just erase the pain. But we tend to block them out, stow them in an abandoned nook of our minds. Its just like a hideous piece of unwanted cheese. You stuff it into the furthest corner of your closet, hoping that u can just forget about it. But the feeling of it still lingers and you pile stuff over it, not wanting to see it by chance even. And then comes the smell...At the back of the mind, you know its there and you are reminded so every single day. The stench accumulates into one which suffocates, which torments...That's when you go crazy. You dig into the closet hoping to do something about it and..you find that its stuck permenantly to the bottom of the closet.

do you see me? do you even know i'm there...
hate me, love me, but spare me your indifference.

as i walked in the storm that day, i couldn't tell if it was tears or rain.