uncertainty

feeling queasy. confused. uncertain about the future.
she's 19. she young and inexperienced. she's getting married.
i guess i still can't really come to terms with that. although we weren't really close, in my mind, she would always be that playful, bubbly girl in class. and suddenly she's thrust into the world of adulthood. handling all those adult things. moving away from her parents. living with a strange man. having babies.
and then i look at myself. i'm probably older than her due to the months. will i be able to make such big decisions on my own? will i be able to be as strong she?
i sigh at my immaturity and dependence on my family. the future seems so near yet so far.